FEAR

YOU STARE TO THE OUTSIDE WERE JUST LIKE YOU

INSIDE OUR SELF INDUCED HYPNOTIC TRANCE

WE WALK WITH A REGIMENTED STEP

TRYING NOT TO SEE EACH OTHER THERE

WERE ALL SAFE AND FROZEN

BOUND AND BLINDED BY OUR OWN FEAR

WAITING FOR THE MOMENT WE CAN REACH OUT

THROUGH THE DARKNESS AND NOT BE STABBED BY THE SHARDS

TO HEAR THE INNER ECHO FORM INTO YOUR VOICE

AND NOT KEPT SILENT

IF I WERE TO WANT TO GET TO KNOW YOU,

YOU JUST MIGHT HAVE TO LET ME IN

YOU FEEL THERE'S CERTAINTY IN REJECTION

WOULD I WANT MORE THAN YOU COULD GIVE

YOU RUN FROM THUNDER TO THE STONE WALLS

AND SHADOWS OF YOUR OWN FEAR

YOU STAND IN RESISTANCE AND KEEP YOUR ARMOR

NO ONE CAN TAKE WHAT'S YOURS

CANT SHOW THE FRAILTY AND SCARS INSIDE YOU

INCESSANTLY THE SAME MISTAKES

YOUR SOFT EYES HARDEN

COLD AND CONTENTED WITH YOUR OWN FEAR

DONT GO TOO FAR

YOU WANTED TO CHANGE

WELL CHANGE YOU DID

I THOUGHT YOU WANTED TO BE BETTER

BETTER THAN THIS

YOU SAID IT WOULDNT TAINT YOU

THIS NEW LIFE YOU LEAD

ITS COMPLETELY REMADE YOU

IN TO SOMEONE THAT I DONT NEED

DONT GO TOO FAR

WHEN THE WORLD DESERTS YOU ITS A LONG WAY HOME

DONT GO TOO FAR

YOU COULD TURN AROUND TO FIND YOURE ALL ALONE, ALL ALONE

YOU STEAL WHAT YOU CAN

BEG FOR WHAT YOU NEED

ONE COULD NEVER BE ENOUGH

TO SATISFY YOUR GREED

WHEN YOU LEAVE THEM BEHIND

DO YOU HAVE ANY REGRETS?

I GUESS IT JUST GETS EASIER

THE COLDER YOU GET

I HOPE YOU FIND YOURSELF

I REALLY DO WISH YOU WELL

THINGS COULD HAVE BEEN SO DIFFERENT

BUT IT'S YOUR STORY TO TELL

I HAVE A FEELING IT WILL BE TO LATE

WHEN YOU UNDERSTAND

WHAT YOU ARE RUNNING TO FIND

YOU HELD IN YOUR HANDS

CANDELABRA     1996

SHE LIT THE CANDELS AND THE WINDOW IN THE DOORWAY

REFLECTED HER FACE

AS HE DREW NEAR HER SHE FELT HIS EAGER PRESENCE AND A

 CHILL

BY THE DIM LIGHT, BY THE DIM, DIM LIGHT

SHE KNEW HE WAS APPROACHING BY THE STAR LIGHT

WAS A DARK NIGHT, WAS A LONG, DARK NIGHT

HE THOUGHT SHE WOULDNT SHE HIM IN THE DEAD OF NIGHT

THINGS AREN'T ALWAYS WHAT THEY SEEM

WORDS AREN'T ALWAYS WHAT YOU MEAN

THE CLOSER THEY ARE THE MORE THEY CAN GET TO YOU

THE MORE YOU REVEAL THE MORE THEY CAN STEAL FROM YOU

THINGS AREN'T ALWAYS WHAT THEY SEEM

A CRY IN THE NIGHT- THE CANDELABRA ON THE FLOOR

CAN'T TAKE ANYMORE -THE HOT WAX LEAVES SUCH A SCAR

CANT HIDE FROM THE STARS THEY'LL KNOW WHO YOU ARE

IN THE DIM LIGHT, IN THE DIM, DIM LIGHT

A HUNDRED EYES ARE WATCHING IN THE STARLIGHT

IN THE DEEP NIGHT, IN THE COLD, DEEP NIGHT

YOU KNOW THERE WILL BE A WITNESS IN THE DEAD OF NIGHT

THE HUNTER CAN BECOME THE PREY

THE MASTER CAN BE MADE TO OBEY

ARE YOU PERSUING OR BEING LEAD

IS IT SAFER ON THE STREETS THAN IN YOUR BED

THINGS ARENT ALWAYS WHAT THEY SEEM

I WONDER IF I'LL DIE HERE      1996

WHAT DIRECTION SHOULD I WALK TODAY

IT STARTS TO LOOK THE SAME WHEREVER I GO

WHEN WILL I WAKE UP FROM THIS FRIGHTENING DREAM

I JUST WAIT FOR THE DESTRUCTION OF THE STATUS QUO

WHAT ILLUSION SHOULD I CREATE,

TO GET MY MIND OF THIS BITTER COLD

WHAT REALITY SHOULD I PARTAKE TO

TAKE THIS EERIE DARKNESS FROM DEEP WITHIN MY SOUL

I WONDER IF I'LL DIE HERE

I THINK I ALREADY DID

I WONDER IF I'LL DIE HERE,

WELL YOU KNOW I THINK

I ALREADY DID

HERE I STAND A FREE WOMAN, FREE TO WALK THE STREETS,

FREE TO HAVE NO HOME, FREE TO STAND OUT IN THE POURING RAIN

TO CONFUSED TO REMEMBER THE RIGHT WAY TO GO

THEY STARE AT THE FREAK AS I WALK BY

AND SAY THIS WAS MY CHOICE TO MAKE

THEY DONT SEE THE TEARS RUN DOWN MY FACE

WHERE WAS THIS CRUCIAL POINT WHERE I MADE SUCH A MISTAKE

IM LOST IN A WONDERLAND, THE LAND OF OPPORTUNITY

ALL THE CARS AND THE HOMES AND THE WARM BEDS I YEARN FOR AT NIGHT

THE DAYS RUN INTO YEARS MY HEADS NO LONGER CLEAR

IVE  STARTED TAKING SOMETHING TO EASE THE PAIN

LOST IN THE LAUGHTER AND THE POINTING FINGERS

AND AGAIN THE EMPTY CITY TURNS OUT ITS LIGHTS

FINDING SMALL DARK PLACES TO LAY MY HEAD,

HOPING IN MY DREAMS MY SOUL WILL TAKE FLIGHT

RUBY SLIPPERS

I AM WITHIN BUT IM ONLY A STRANGER

INTO THE STREETS AND IN WITH THE CROWD

THE TENSION IS HEAVY WITH POWER AND GLOW

BUT THE LIGHTS FILL MY EYES WITH LIFE

I WANDER THROUGH BUT MY FREEDOMS ILLUSION

I CANNOT SEE WHAT THE DONT WANT TO SHOW

FANTASTIC SPLENDOR, A SHOW FOR ALL AGES

THE LIGHTS FILL MY HEAD WITH DREAMS

I KNOW THIS IS NOT WHERE I BELONG

I CAN FEEL THE GREED IN THE PLACE

I WANT OUT OF THIS MAZE

TO RECLAIM MY SPIRIT AND GO BACK HOME

MY VISION IS CLEAR IVE SEEN THE BLUEPRINTS

BUT STILL CAUGHT IN THE TORRENT THAT FRANTICALLY FLOWS

THOSE IN MY COMPANY ARE DRAWN LIKE A MOTH

BUT THE LIGHTS TELL ME TO GO

NO DOUBT ABOUT IT

ARE THESE LIES, ARE THESE TRIES TO PERSUADE ME TO STAY

DESPITE THE TIME-CANT PUT MY FINGER ON IT-

WHY DO THE WORDS NOT CONCERN ME, JUST THE PUSHING ME AWAY

I WANTED TO BELIEVE IT WASNT TIME TO LEAVE BUT NOW IM SURE I KNOW

SO DESPERATE SO PLEADING SO NOW AND THEN I DO REGRET

THAT ALL MY WORDS WERE WASTED WHY DID I TRY TO CONVINCE YOU

THERE WAS SO MUCH MORE THAN THIS

I WANTED TOBELIEVE IT WASN'T TIME TOLEAVE BUT NOW I'M SURE I KNOW

THERES NO DOUBT ABOUT IT NOW

HE WALKS BY WE LOCK EYES AND THEN HE ASKS ME FOR MY NAME

LOOKS LIKE A NEW BEGINNING

THOUGHTS OF THE PAST GROWING FAINTER I KNOW I WILL LOVE AGAIN 

SPIRIT OF LOVE

AWAKEN MY SENSES, 

THERE MUST BE SOMETHING I DONT SEE CLEARLY

ALL I NEED IS TO FEEL ITS TRUE, TO HEAR WORDS THAT I CAN BELIEVE.

I ALWAYS LOOSE WHEN I REACH OUT MY HANDS

THEY STAY FOLDED NOW, HEALING FROM BRUISES

WHERE, WHERE IS THE SPIRIT OF LOVE?

WHERE IS THE SPIRIT THAT MAKES ME ACHE INSIDE ENOUGH TO FEEL REAL?

WHERE, WHERE IS THE SPIRIT OF LOVE?

THAT MAKES IT TANGIBLE ENOUGH TO TOUCH.

STUDY THE FACES

BUT THERES NOTHING THERE FOR ME EMPTY

SHOULDNT THERE BE SOMETHING TO FIND, MAYBE ITS JUST ALL IN MY MIND

IM WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO SHOW ME

WHAT I NEED TO FIND OUT ON MY OWN SOMEWHERE

CANT IT GET THROUGH MY DEFENSES?

GETTING COLDER BUT IM TOO NUMB TO FEEL ANYTHING AT ALL

MAYBE IM TOO BROKEN TO MEND, AND THE BEST I CAN DO IS PRETEND.        

LIKE WATER IN THE DESERT MIRAGES

I MAY NEVER REACH IT, BUT IVE GOT TO BELIEVE ITS OUT THERE